Trying to wonder now what good it all did me. Still here in this place where I have to test it out every day. Hand out the window, neighbors wondering what’s wrong. We never ask, we never see each other. Running from sidewalk to doorway. Inverted giant triangle pointed downwards like sword point at the park, diorama sized palace where the empress lives only a few blocks away. Probably just playing a TV game, lost in SNS bullshit, giving half-attention to someone in the same room, getting older, waiting until the wrinkles around your eyes expand into frowns, upset at the fact that you are aging (which is bound to make me smile). Protests at the holy sites nearby, but who has bandwidth for that? Have to devote discipline to others, larger causes. I guess we need the money until it finally stops.